I don’t really deserve to be in the horrors program. I am a slacker and get distracted easily. It has taken me so long to get to this application that I am ashamed. I continually find excuses while I haven’t done it. I do this with a lot of stuff. At Gardner-Webb I will contribute a lot of things. Organization is not my strongest one at the moment, but I am not satisfied staying where I am. I am getting better each day. I am taking steps to improve these habits I have built in my life.
They say that when you lose one sense your others becomes stronger. Where I lack in planning and consistency I make up in adjustment and drive under pressure. An untapped energy bursts from me when I plug into a task. I would like to think I’m like a car that is geared high, I am a little slow getting off but I when I get going I will reach great speeds. I am disciplining my self more and more and the more I tame the beast inside the more I see the power in its concentrated energy. Not much as been expected of me other than be good and go to college, but I am not going to let be what defines this point in my life. I am joining the rebellion against low expectations. I am taking part in an irresistible revolution. I am joining in the creation of good in the world. As my eyes adjust to the real world around me I am seeing my call to be the church instead of just going to it. In the honor’s program as I both challenge myself with self-discipline and harder classes I feel as though I am truly giving myself to the program. A wise man in the heat of turmoil once said that “The greatest measure of a man is not where is stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” This is going to be a hard thing for me, but by this I am finding myself and truly contributing the best I can to the program.
I am a people person by nature I can’t escape it even if I try. I’ve been told that I never meet a stranger and I believe it. As I grow in this walk with Christ, it becomes more and more apparent to me the connection between us all. I am seeing the longing in us all for something so much bigger than the world we live in. My heart goes out to people. I wrestle with the struggles people are having and wear myself out sometimes fighting for people.
I struggle with my ego sometimes and writing this and these other scholarship essays is killing me. I am breaking the cycle of the world revolving my accomplishments. It’s hard when everything dealing with getting into college asks that you brag on yourself. I think I will add a lot to Gardner-Webb and the honor’s program, I just ask that you will let me start doing instead of talking about it so much.
2 comments:
David, WAy Cool Did'nt know you were headed to Gardner Webb. I went there, you know? You'll add much to their campus as you would any campus God choose for you to attend.
Did you know that it says the "horrors program" in the first sentence?
I found that QUITE hysterical. :)
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