You write ME a blog

I find it hard to sit down and devotionalize everything I am thinking.

Sometimes it happens,

but it rarely is something I can do just because I want to.

I use to think in terms of devotionals.

I still do sometimes.

I want to take the things I'm learning and share it with others around me.

My problem is that I began just thinking of fixing people's problems rather than just focusing on virtue itself.

I am such a fixer.

I want to contribute to the world and sometimes I think that I can do this almost instantly with though perfect wording and fixes to situations.

I want to present something strong and wild.

I also want to present something well thought out and disciplined.

It is hard finding the balance.

I really don't walk around with something cocked ready to present like I use to.

I haven't decided if that's bad or not.

Earlier this semester I learned to engage people in a very personal and caring level.

I was able to talk to people differently. With more love for them.

Right now I feel like I am so off. My strength lies asleep somewhere while the rest of me just chills waiting on nothing really just getting by.

That- is killing me.

I caught a glimpse of hope today. I caught a glimpse of hope last night.

Maybe I am waiting on some kind of big thing to get me energized.

Maybe what I need is to just enjoy the little things that are happening.

Maybe I should stop waiting on big and just do what is small.

I'll let you know how this goes tomorrow.

This blog might be scattered.

It's 12:30 in the morning.

Let me write more later. =]